Recently, I started going to see a counselor again, almost two years after my move and withdrawal from seminary (though I haven’t withdrawn yet but I am sure is inevitable). This time it seems different though. Maybe I’m more open, but maybe not? Certainly my life circumstances are different.
So at my first counseling session, he asked me, “Why now?” Even now, I am not absolutely sure the answer to that question. However, if I do recall, I believe it has something to do with my wife, usually justifiably or in exasperation, repeatedly telling me, “You are doing nothing about your recovery!” Followed by, “Why are we here!? Why did we move here!?” We chose where we live because I believed it would be the best place for me to find some help…help that I am not getting, not because it is not available, but because I have failed to follow through again!
