“When our pain outweighs our fear of recovery, then the road to recovery begins.” While I am not sure who originally said it, it is truth. As I have said before, our porn addiction is deeper than the mere physical. It’s deeper than the lust. It’s deeper than the hormones and chemicals. Instead, we must ask: What’s driving this addiction? What is the root cause?
For me, I run from pain and suffering. I cling to pleasure, convenience, and comfortability. I also have a deep fear of intimacy (and along with that rejection), and failure. If someone really knew me, they wouldn’t accept me. I tend to believe that people only accept me and my potential, not just me and my failings and shortcomings, because if they really knew me then they wouldn’t employ me or befriend me. For someone else, it may be a fear of something else. Think about interviewing. We want the job so badly that we often hide our failings, imperfections, and shortcomings. “People call these things imperfections, but they’re not. Ah, that’s the good stuff.” While this is not referring to anyone’s addiction, whether drugs, alcohol, niccotine (spelling?), or porn, this is relevant nonetheless. But do we believe that our little (or big) imperfections like our hair (or lack thereof), our teeth, our nose, etc., are acceptable to God? Or is this a fear of yours? What do you fear?
