I can remember to this talking about my problem probably for the first time with another guy. I finally called the Senior Pastor of my church, an alumni of the Seminary I was attending at the time, and he passed me off on a layman of the church who worked with a group called NetAccountability, and I am not sure where that company is now, but I am pretty sure that they were bought out.
Anyways, I can remember sitting in a room talking about my issue as though I was not really there. What I remember rather distinctly was talking about myself in the 3rd person almost the entire conversation. I remember being in some sort of out of body experience where I was looking down from the ceiling on the window side looking at myself talking to my new “friend.” I remember watching it as if I were watching a TV show or movie. I have no idea what I said or how I said it. I was cold, callous, hard, and impenetrable. I sat there with my arms crossed talking rather nonchalantly with absolutely no emotion. It was strange. Very strange.
How was your first experience?
